Death In The Family

I am sorry that I have been missing in action the past couple of days.

Demetrieus grandmother died yesterday. I don’t know what to say. She didn’t like me and Dee and I ended on bad terms. I called him last night to apologize for his loss. He hung up in my face. He called today and we talked and he wants me to come by and get something’s that his grandma wanted me to have. There is literally stuff all around with my name on it.

I think we are planning on having funeral sometime between 1st and 6th.

Trying to find all the peeps from Baton Rouge and surrounding areas. I stayed over there with him until 425. He keeps answering the phone "no sir or no maam. Grandma's at home with Jesus. Well, you know how she was always on me to go to church. She had notes on stuff. That says “for my granddaughter Kell” and I guess i can't say i have nothing to wear to church. She really wanted me to go to church.

I and she didn’t see Eye to Eye at all.

Several of her pet peeves about me:

1. I don’t go to church (couldn’t get her to understand that you don’t have to attend a church home to have faith and believe in Jesus. And that everyone has a different choice in worship. I worship might fine right here in my Living Room with Creflo/ Doesn’t make me less cause I don’t go to a physical chuch.)

2. I practice Traditional Medicine and participate in Native Ceremonies.

3. I fish on Sundays. Told me I can’t do that.

4. My voicemail is in Lakota. She left messages demanding me to change it from “Spanish” to a language that “everybody” can understand. This made me leave it in Lakota. If you call my house it still is like that.

5. when I used to call for Dee she wouldn’t put him on the phone and told him he was forbidden from my house.

I loved and cared about her. She and I just loved at a distance. Now she is gone. Wish we would have gotten more opportunities to talk and reflect on our thoughts. Or just listen to her and her MLM pyraimid speeches about give me $100 and 8 people will give me back.

Can’t change the past. I am such a dick sometimes.

Just another example of how my stubbornness gets me in trouble at times. . (My spirit animal is the buffalo) Kinda depressed.

Here is some music that she would enjoy……….